As I’ve aged, and dated horrible man after horrible man I’ve developed a certain shell. I do not go head over heels, I did that once and got so so burned that since then I’ve been very controlled in my relationships. I get close- don’t get me wrong, I still give a lot of myself to whomever I’m seeing- but there’s always this part of me that I hold back. I know that it’s just because I’ve dated such emotionally inept men that didn’t really care about things in my life that didn’t directly involve/effect them, if I knew I was not going to get support why bother to share the other crap that goes on in my life.

With the Amazing One however, it’s so different. Everything is different. He cares, he shows that he cares, he listens. I’ve given up control on this one, I’ve let go of old fears and have and am opening myself up completely. It is I think what a relationship is supposed to be. It is perfect. Everything with him is clicking, the conversation, the fun, and mother of god the sex. There is not a single thing lacking here. He understands me, and I’m pretty sure I understand him…

Could this be the year that I actually have something really great to make up for all the really sucky ones of years past? Hmm I think perhaps it could be.