The Amazing One and I have begun the merging of things. It has been nice this week waking up every morning with him there. It is nice to not be annoyed by someones presence and secretly wait for the second that you’re apart so that you can vent your frustration about them or just be away from them.
We are getting closer to permanently sharing a living space. This would normally be the part where I started to freak out about the thought of being with the other person constantly, but I am not freaked out at all. He and I get along far better than any other person I’ve been with. we have fun together, we honestly enjoy one anothers company, I feel safe with him. I have no fear about the prospect, with one small exception.
I’ve not shared a living space with ANYONE except the girls in years. What if I am a horrible person to live with? What if he gets there and gets settled and then just hates me? I know I am set in my ways some, I am sure that there are things about me that are annoying- I can be messy, I can get a little lazy, I tend to start 15 different things at once and then rotate thru them all instead of starting one and following it thru to finish. A prime example is that currently all three of the bedroom closets are in complete and total disarray and scattered about the floors of the bedrooms because I’m in the process of cleaning them all out one by one and throwing shit out and making room for the things the Amazing One will be bringing. The garage- also a mess, I’ve not been able to park in it for well over two weeks because it’s being cleaned out and there are piles of things there to throw away and bookshelves in various stages of refinishing.
Logically I know I should have started with one of these, finished it, moved on to the next. I chose to start all four, and while they’re all in different stages of “done” none is complete. My general housekeeping is much improved over years past, but I am no cleanfreak by any stretch of the imagination. I can bend, I can recognize that there are things about me that I can improve upon, and he is not asking me to change- I know he will love me for me regardless and he will work with me and bend with me, but what if I’m just too big a pain in the ass to live with?
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What if? What if? Guess what? If he loves you, this will NOT break you up. This is the small atuff. This is what relationships are all about. If he leaves you because you have messy closets, you don’t want him. Chill out, sweetie. It’s gonna be great!
January 25, 2006 @ 1:07 pmWhat if? What if? Guess what? If he loves you, this will NOT break you up. This is the small stuff. This is what relationships are all about. If he leaves you because you have messy closets, you don’t want him. Chill out, sweetie. It’s gonna be great!
January 25, 2006 @ 1:08 pmIs he going to be paying rent? Or have you guys talked abotu $$ issues, or these don’t matter?
January 25, 2006 @ 5:37 pmall $$ issues have been discussed and are fully agreed upon
January 25, 2006 @ 5:44 pm(with no fighting or pouting anywhere to be seen either)
then i see no issues. don’t be skerd.
January 26, 2006 @ 5:07 pm