I don’t know if it’s the weather, or the stress level at work but lately I’m finding that I’m having a REALLY hard time with keeping my filter on. By filter I mean that little part of your brain that says “don’t say that” and reworks it into something nicer, or keeps anything from coming out of my mouth at all.

I would love to run unfiltered for just one day. I think it would releave a hell of a lot of stress. For example, today I saw some early 20’s guy in his KIA SPECTRA with spinning hubcaps (not wheels or rims but hubcaps) and his seat kicked so far back that he esentially was driving from the back seat. I was inches away from following him to wherever he may have been going just so I could get out of the car and tell him I thought he was an enormous tool and was never going to get laid by anything other than strippers the way he was going. Not even the good strippers, but the strippers at the isolated strip club way out from civilization who were well over 30 and had never been able to make enough money to get adequate plastic surgery to increase their stripper earning potential.

This week at the amazing one’s soccer game there was an especially annoying British man on the opposing team. He had a heavy accent, but not in the “wow his accent’s hot” kind of way, more in the “wow your accent makes you sound like a whiny little girl” kind of way. He was also a little bit of a hack player. I was seriously tempted to wait for him to come off the field and then point out that I thought he sounded like a girl and that he should quit his damn bitching and learn to play like a real player instead of a hack. PS- stop talking, yelling, directing every single second whether you’re on the field or not, your voice sounds like nails on a chalkboard.

Then yesterday a former super close friend mentioned she had just heard about my new boyfriend and congrats. Thanks for the congrats, however if you ever listenend to a thing I said anymore you would remember I told you about him 3 months ago, and sent you pictures… over IM… so I know you got them. We even discussed them. But my filter kicked in and I let it pass without saying anything.

I think I’m getting dangerously close to just loosing control of the filter entirely. I remember quite well the days when the smart ass things would only pop into my head well after the event had occured. Lately however they’re the very first thing that comes to mind, and I’ve come oh so close too many times lately to just saying it as soon as I think it. I think it would be good for me frankly to just drop the filter for a little while, however I realize I would have to do it while out of town so as not to inflict the inner bitch on friends and family and coworkers